Make me wonder

Everything feels so heavy. 

Dripping wet with other distorted views of 'reality'. A lot of change happening around me at the moment. A very thick heavy cloud is surrounding my space, not a black one though. Not completely negative. Just a cloud of a thousand things at once. I can feel my heart chakra exploding with overwhelming energy. Part of me does feel stuck though, that I'm looking at my life from outside my self and I ask whose it is. In this process of changing I feel a part of my self shining through the darkness. So many shooting stars thrown my way that they only get caught in the tangle of clustered energy surrounding me, not letting them in. My heart is open but this human life I cannot understand. I want to evaporate into endless space, cutting ties from this physical world of suffering. It may sound like I do not have any hope right now for the world but that is not true. It just saddens me to see how much evil and distortion is placed upon us. So easily can our mirrors fog up and it is only up to us to polish them. Polish the mirror reflecting our true selves. Growing within this vessel - I do feel blessed to be healthy and alive. I live a fortunate life filled with love surrounding me, but why is the pain always so clear? 

The innocence of childhood, being enveloped by our imagination and the absence of the weighted world. That is always in my heart but swimming in the sea of suffering can cloud my vision. I want a raft made out of wood and bamboo, nothing else needed. Instantly my mind goes to "But you need food! and water! and this! and that!" 

NO!

I just want a raft, made out of wood and bamboo. And to sail upon the open sea stretched out into the sunrise. I want to evaporate with the suns rays and only become light. Letting go of this human world.

 SCARE ME WITH THE TRUTH

MAKE ME WONDER AGAIN

Shifting and evolving in each and every place
feeling the rhythm we fasten our pace
creating karma that widens the sky
energy lifted so high we can read your mind
the causes we make create us to be free
if you let your being just be
pulsing with energy
creating a constellation of causes and effects
pulling in what is meant to be
in another lifetime
a sister
a brother
an enemy
shifting and evolving in each and every place
lifetimes interconnected and shared in the galaxy
imprinting only how we're meant to be

 My mind swirls with beautiful butterflies
invisible in the pool of time
emotions, different colors
all fail to be the perfect lullabies
beautiful yellows
kisses of red
bliss
falling through my bed
this smile cannot fade
my card, the ace of spades
a jigsaw puzzle called life
beautiful, breathtaking
mystic
each piece: a place, a person
aligning with each other
they shift into their perfect fit
others move along
finding their hidden song
igniting fires
and watching the embers burn
into their own universe
these stars give birth and die
all within the time
of her last cigarette